October 25, 2013

Life is on the roll!

It has been a long I blocked and many of my friends actually commented on it. Not because they missed my blog, mostly they missed my blabberings! Many people feel , if there are no posts from me for long, there is something terribly wrong. Believe me things are moving so fast, I hardly have some time and rather internet to sit and note them down. Like many other posts, this shall be a mixed bag from my monkey mind!

It has been almost two weeks I landed in Pune, with the hope of getting into the new job role and the city. Doing it good. Pune is not entirely new and so is the language, so far enjoying life. Super hectic schedules and house hunting take most of the chunk of my peace of mind, the not so peaceful chunk goes straight to Mr.ISB.

The first week in the five star hotel, sponsored by my new company was nothing but a week of transition from doing-nothing-phase to day-should-be-of-30-hours-phase. With superb services and facilities both at hotel and the company with training sessions, I guess I developed a nice habit of sleeping as early as possible. According to my mom, that is the most brilliant establishment of mine and the company put together.

The second week started with a lot of rush. Stretched working hours, late evening tele conferences to attend with on going small trainings and how can my health behave properly?! A lot of pain and multiple organ nervousness as I call it happened and I almost (along with Mr.ISB of course!) faced those two- three days. If I think now, they were nothing, pain lead me to capture everyone's peace of mind. Being alone and feeling sick yet sane, is the skill I am looking forward to develop.

Next week is going to have major changes again - Shifting to a room on sharing basis with other girls, getting into the job business some more and yes, preparing for the Diwali vacation. Yeah, my company is kind enough to give me five days holidays. Yuppy! Not for the vacation ( I dont need one now!) but this will be my last Diwali at my home. Very important for my parents, for me, well I am not going to spare them even in future anyway.

October 13, 2013

Pune bound

The day approached, when I will again relocate to a not so new and yet a strange city for me. Pune. The part of Pune where I have stayed before is more like a jungle, this time it is the proper city area. Anyway, it did control my nervousness to some extent.

It is not first time I am shifting some where. My last four years have seen more relocation than I would have ever thought of. This time it is different. I know I am here for my job, I might face pure professional environment than my first job - where I managed to get friends to die for. I will be at a higher position, where things will be judged in a serious manner. I will have to act more responsible. I am not nervous for these things.

I am nervous for the fact that after like days and days at home, it will be difficult to live alone. Of course virtually my parents, my would be and my would be parents will be there, but for me it is difficult.

I just want to finalize a flat where I would get room mates like I had in Singapore ( Now this is ultra difficult!), I want to work hard so that loneliness would be the last thing to enter my mind. I want to explore this city which is a blend of modern trends and traditions which survived ages.

With such hopes in my mind, keeping the TV on as I want some one's feel  in the hotel room I have been given for some days by the company, I am signing off. :)

PS: This post is written in jiffy. It shows randomness of my mind! ;)

October 2, 2013

Super pre-wedding Blues-1

Why Super? As it is too early to feel those moments - Feelings which are blue. Yet, I am having some. I thought why not to start a series, may be in future I might just have fun reading it or I can inspire other would be brides to tackle better than me!

  • So when I say my would be is studying in The Indian School Of Business, Hyderabad, people give expressions as if I am going to marry a man who is almost an Einstein-kind-of-a-guy. They tell me I am super fortunate and so on. Little less they know, I am going to request the ISB management to give away all would-be-partners of students studying, certificates for cultivating patience (even in hyper persons like me-as little as a few micro grams!), managing odd timings and controlling frustration ( in Nano-grams, if it exists).
  • I have not digested the fact that I am getting married next year because of two reasons. My relatives are over enthusiastic and come up with 89789759 kinds of plans for my wedding. I feel I am still single. ( May be it is a good feeling!) The pressure gap between two facts creates sucking vacuum in my mind heart.
  • I am rebellious. My parents think I am rebellious now, in my teens I was not. I feel I was always rebellious , just could not voice my voice. Now I do it once I feel saturated. The situation is not easy to handle. I am yet to digest the fact that, I have to leave my identity, my parents, my family, almost a part of my soul after the marriage. I know I am exaggerating but some where it is true. I am not being forced by even a single member of his family for anything, but at the end of the day, the truth remains same. I feel ( just like a teenager) that if you are a guy, you are lucky. You will carry your identity with yourself all your life. Taking responsibility of some one is not super tough unlike watching your parents loosing rights over you against a man, who might/ might not rank you first on priority. These thoughts are instantaneous and I am sure I am going to laugh at this. For now, it is painful.
  • I feel , even when I am mentally prepared for marriage, I am not feeling like I am engaged. That doesn't mean I don't love my would be!! I share a relations which is very special with him , a relation of being the best friends now. The only shock my friends have is, why am I not already dreaming about my wedding. Because, I do not want to expect anything from any one. I also do not know the difference between planning, dreams and day dreams. Heart breaking pain is something I am afraid of, even if it is as small as loosing an ear ring gifted by some one special. Yeah, I am not so strong. At least now.
  • If he is going to read this, he might thunk his head on the wall for getting engaged to a very emotional and complex personality. I just want to raise my collars and say, "Your choice!"